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"All men have a sweetness in their life. That is what helps them go on. It is towards that they turn when they feel too worn out.

- Albert Camus

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the name's wilfred.
wilfred avelino j manalili,
but willy's fine enough.
october 12, ever since '94.
the youngest of 3.
you could say i'm one of those random people in the room to fill up the space. but, i don't exactly take that much, haha. im short, but i'm growing! i'm a growing child. and really, you should notice me. you'd get quite amazed, how different i've become over the years. for the better, for the better. anyways, i'm asian. and have great white/yellow/nude skin. and it never obeys me when i try to tan. i'm a dork, i'm peppy, i'm engh. yet, i'm there. and i try to understand. i like gummies, and ice cream, and funnel cake. i like to stay home for my fam, for loafting, for anything. i write, and i draw, and i notice. i tend to get phased out/bored? but hey, i can still party it up. do not underestimate. in education, i'm up there. haha, but not literally. OLMC's treating me good enough. sophomore year, what? i'm so not ready for it. lately, i've been into traveling and going away. experiencing* i'm really trying to boost my shyness up. 'cause, yes, i am originally shy to be around. but, its getting better. i think.

music, computer, food (but no gain), growing up, the "usual"/"yuje".
cannot forget a.t♥ she gets me.

Howie Day - Collide

December 10, 2009

if you try, know exactly what to do, and keep at it, i'm positive that can get me so high when i'm down. i contradict sentences like those sometimes, because i'm pretty sure that i can help myself up on my own. but for the past few days, i know now that i depend on people. it's not the fact that i'm staying down for attention - i'm staying down, 'cause well, i need people to help me back up. life, itself, involves connecting with others, and feeling down is a great reason for connection. and when i see you not exactly paying attention to my position, not knowing for sure if i'm alright, i will tender out. i will not allow you to leave, and if i do, i'll regret it. i'll regret all of those things that got me heated for moments, and just want to get noticed - speak out my thoughts? - but i'm scared i might explode,haha.

.. hmm. i guess, sympathy soothes problems for me. i am not lying when i say it, the things that get me heated have to have evidence. for i am so devoted, no matter what happens - if it's towards me or whom i care for. i will keep thinking, i will get focused, there has to be reasons on why such and such happens - those are what i think. i am so technological when i am heated, branching everything with anything. so much messes, so much piles, noise, but. if you help me. if you try, because you have care. because you hate seeing me like this. because you know that the smile i have is much better on my face. because you know i am much better, better - i will tender out. that's all. keep trying on it, and i'll notice. i will see sympathy, and i'll be there with you. when i'm down, and you help me, substitute my place to me, i will be oh so happy. helpers, then, are greatly considered as angels, when they are devoted, too, i guess. even if they have to sympathize.

love is switching roles, and persisting, because you're sympathetic.