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"All men have a sweetness in their life. That is what helps them go on. It is towards that they turn when they feel too worn out.

- Albert Camus

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January 1, 2010

2009, you were so many things.

as much as 2010 will get, you were sooo many new things to me. like, legit. legitttttt titLMFAO ew. i was such a noob /08, and then you came, and made everything better. even though i'm still a noobLOL, shut up. you piled on a couple'a'things:

smarts: i'm not even lying, i think i got smarter. like, LOL, i'm kinda dumb, like i'm sorta dumb blonde at times, but i got so much smarter in 2009. idk why, i think i wanted it more, the works. i wasn't exactly focused fully, but i really did try. and it got me good grades ^-^ oh yuh. but omg, yaknow what really cheesed me kinda? how people say i'm so smart. i just wanna go to them and be like 'shut up, i'm not smart, i just try hard' LOL. but then again, i don't always try that hard at timesLMFAO, so it would sorta be like 'shut up, i just try to get good grades' yeeee (H) hahaha. 'cause like, dude. to be successful you don't need to be smart. you just gotta try. and 2009 i tried vurry hard. gotta keep that up.

the shy: errr, shyness. shy shy shy guy(always thought that guy in mario games was creepy, haha). i am so shy, still. no lies. but i can't say i didn't open up in /09. 'cause well, i know for sure, i opened my feelings more to people. loike, soooo much. first of all, school. even though, of course you make new friends at school, i opened up more from making them. which is a plus. i know a lot of more people now at carmel, because i tried talking to 'em. and even though i havent talked to people at school, that i want to know, that situation always happens, haha. next. fiesta. i have gotten so comfortable at practice. and with them, in general. my friend said that when i was growing there, i just kept getting louder and louder every yearLOL. i'm actually liked a lot by some of them, and i made great friends there, and they still are great friends. like, learning the higher dances for the boys, and talking to the other guys, and doing the mini performances at places, and the living arts show(;hearts), and the emil yarris 'cats' fail performancesLOL, they made me open up a looooot. AND CAMPING. fiesta camping /09 :'). it wasn't as 'live' i guess, for some people. it was for me. bonded a lot there. and met new people, :'), and had tons of fun. meeting people that opens you up more is fun. not being that shy is fun. haha. fam, yes. they made me open up. proper movement, and legit school friends? mosdef openers. best friends too? openers. everyoneeeeeee. people help me open me up. and me opening myself up? thats a check, for sure. i've realized, so many things about me. that i use it to my advantage, in socializing, and having fun.
.. fun is just the greatest thing, isn't itLOL.

clothes: engh, it was a great 'in' thing for my thoughts. whenever i had money, i guess clothing was a big thing that i wanted to waste it on. not much to say about it, since my clothing sense hasn't changed as much. i've just got more wardrobe throughout the year. i look sorta prettier :) hahaha. and the colours are really sproutingLOL. this category is useless.

overall: it should be changed to happiness, since 2009 was so happy to me. but no. it was so much more things. being smart, it made me feel i could move in life. getting more friends, i felt more confident in my self-esteem. learning so many things, i gained more experience. 2009, overall, was fun. was trying. was the best so far.

the best so far? why?
i got my girlfriend in 2009, thats why, silly! ashlee tadeo, that's her name.
she came into my life in 2009. she was already in it, known her since grade 3. butlike, now she's into it. LMFAO, get it! ahhhhh!

it's not the fact that i got my girlfriend in 2009 which makes it the best. it's how, she made it to be the best. for me, that is. all those things that 2009 has given me, she's given them too. she help me learn, and gave me drive to be smarter. she opened me up, SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH, that i'm not as shy. infact, she's one of the reasons why i did open up to people. she's fullout the reason. she's given me tons of clothes, and things to put on. she gave me shirts, and bracelets, and boxes, and letters, and notes, and trinkets, and snacks, and smiles. in 2009, my girlfriend became the overall reason for fun(LMFAO, what if i said reason for the season, tool). i wish i could go into more detail on how she's impacted me that year. just know that she did. she did she did she did. she did it. she made everything for me. she gave all sorta of things for me. she's the one who made the fuzzies in my tummy, and the redness in my face when im embarrassed. and .. idk, everything. so much, that i blank out kinda when people ask me how important she is. or why i love her. idk if i havent put a category in it, but 2009 was very loving. but it's here where love is, because i got it the most from her. yeah, my friends and fam have loved me, but my girlfriend loved me. in 2009, i got a girlfriend, and she loved me.

my girlfriend loves me.