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"All men have a sweetness in their life. That is what helps them go on. It is towards that they turn when they feel too worn out.

- Albert Camus

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the name's wilfred.
wilfred avelino j manalili,
but willy's fine enough.
october 12, ever since '94.
the youngest of 3.
you could say i'm one of those random people in the room to fill up the space. but, i don't exactly take that much, haha. im short, but i'm growing! i'm a growing child. and really, you should notice me. you'd get quite amazed, how different i've become over the years. for the better, for the better. anyways, i'm asian. and have great white/yellow/nude skin. and it never obeys me when i try to tan. i'm a dork, i'm peppy, i'm engh. yet, i'm there. and i try to understand. i like gummies, and ice cream, and funnel cake. i like to stay home for my fam, for loafting, for anything. i write, and i draw, and i notice. i tend to get phased out/bored? but hey, i can still party it up. do not underestimate. in education, i'm up there. haha, but not literally. OLMC's treating me good enough. sophomore year, what? i'm so not ready for it. lately, i've been into traveling and going away. experiencing* i'm really trying to boost my shyness up. 'cause, yes, i am originally shy to be around. but, its getting better. i think.

music, computer, food (but no gain), growing up, the "usual"/"yuje".
cannot forget a.t♥ she gets me.

In the Gutter, no stars

October 9, 2011

Leaving seems so right, nowadays.
Nowadays, it hurts to stay.

I remind myself every time,
"You cannot always get what you want."
"As good as everything seems, something has to be bad."

...but they don't exactly seem to appreciate my initiative.
I can get so problematic, I just don't want to keep complicating things even further from what they are.
I really do want everybody to reach their aspirations, and be the change they so clearly want. But to be honest, it feels as if I'm getting in the way of that.
My thoughts and wants are so different from everyone else. I believe they will change everything, and turn others against each other - so you could see how bothered I am when people wonder how I feel (ideally setting themselves up for the cold, surprising, different, bad truth).
&what bothers me most is how I'm having a hard time reconsidering.

This time of the year, I would get so inspired - with the weather changing, all the events and birthdays.
I used to shine.

Nowadays, I'm just a shade.