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"All men have a sweetness in their life. That is what helps them go on. It is towards that they turn when they feel too worn out.

- Albert Camus

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the name's wilfred.
wilfred avelino j manalili,
but willy's fine enough.
october 12, ever since '94.
the youngest of 3.
you could say i'm one of those random people in the room to fill up the space. but, i don't exactly take that much, haha. im short, but i'm growing! i'm a growing child. and really, you should notice me. you'd get quite amazed, how different i've become over the years. for the better, for the better. anyways, i'm asian. and have great white/yellow/nude skin. and it never obeys me when i try to tan. i'm a dork, i'm peppy, i'm engh. yet, i'm there. and i try to understand. i like gummies, and ice cream, and funnel cake. i like to stay home for my fam, for loafting, for anything. i write, and i draw, and i notice. i tend to get phased out/bored? but hey, i can still party it up. do not underestimate. in education, i'm up there. haha, but not literally. OLMC's treating me good enough. sophomore year, what? i'm so not ready for it. lately, i've been into traveling and going away. experiencing* i'm really trying to boost my shyness up. 'cause, yes, i am originally shy to be around. but, its getting better. i think.

music, computer, food (but no gain), growing up, the "usual"/"yuje".
cannot forget a.t♥ she gets me.

20 days

January 30, 2010

WOAH.
why did i just realize that i had to use blogger to speak?
OMG WTFFFFF BLOGGER.
you suddenly lost interest to me!
idk, i think it's cause i got lazy in making the posts (they are pretty crafty, yenno)
and that i could be doing better.
haha, i moved on to tumblr. god damnit.

i can't believe i haven't used you for 20 whole days.
my gahd.
i think i'll use you like ashlee - for more personal shit.
shit that i can't express as well in tumblr.
and so it doesn't make me a tumblr-crackwhore. erks.

- i've missed you, and still do.
- my life's well, if you were wondering. i'll inform eventually.

ps. i've gotta rejuvenate the music on this. i've got plenty of songs that i'd like to listen to after another.

debuuuuu

January 10, 2010

-currently, and still, working on english cull.
-got back from a party, one of the several things that up myself from work
-have fun with people, i guess to a point where i start missing them later
-want to tell my girlfriend all the silly, simple funny things that happen when she's not around, but i always forget. because we make some ourselves before i could say them.

I saw the stars

January 4, 2010

and they're confusing me :C

damn you, english culminating.
dammmmnnnn youuuu!

Chairlift - Bruises

January 3, 2010

beginning of my 2010 year? hahaha,

- partying it up big with fam
'cause of new years party, and the cousins + richard slept over ^-^ (drag me to hell and blair witch project ftw)
- on computer doing omgpop, blog, and the other loafts(of bread, sure)
- missing ashlee(that is, a huge statement on its own)
- catching up with fiesta fam
'cause i missed ryan and rj the most:,)(still sorry that i didn't invite chya, babe)

.. good start? LOL, good enough. true.

happy

January 1, 2010

2009 was so happy to me.

because of the smiling. because of the laughing. because of the stupid jokes. because of the live hang outs. and the cool car rides to places. and the epic plane rides. and the quotes. and the dance jam outs. and school hallway/walking/in-class times. and the fam-o favourites + jokes and blurbs. and the random-osity. and the epic failures. and the camping. and the playgrounds. and the malls/ general hang outs(repeated). and the yummy food. and the friends. and the more friends(repeated). and ashlee tadeo. and my girlfriend(repeated). and the month anniversaries. and the singing. and the smiling(repeated). and the laughing(repeated). and the stupid jokes(repeated). and the eskimo kissesLOL. mmm.

and how, even though 2009 had its countless and crazy rough times, things got me through it. i've been sucha loser, and a bitch, and jerk, and loser. .. and a bitch, AND a jerkLOL. so much stuff that's made things bad, but a lot of people, including myself, have turned it better. preferably my girlfriend. ofcourse. ashlee's just the best part, yakno. 2009, also, can be described, in general, to me, as happy. it was a happy year, from the beginning, and eventually made it, to the end. i don't regret what i did there, because i'll look back, and still find myself dumb. either wayLOL. i love it. in the bumLMFAO. my essence of comical-ness was better in 2009 too. hahaha, i'm the coolest(repeated) (H)!hahahah! .. fagLOL. i babbled, uhm,LOL. i was very happy.

(insert picture here)

i am, still, very happy.

+ if i forgot to say it, thank you for it all. KISSES! WITH THE FISHES! BICHEZZZZ!

new

2009, you were so many things.

as much as 2010 will get, you were sooo many new things to me. like, legit. legitttttt titLMFAO ew. i was such a noob /08, and then you came, and made everything better. even though i'm still a noobLOL, shut up. you piled on a couple'a'things:

smarts: i'm not even lying, i think i got smarter. like, LOL, i'm kinda dumb, like i'm sorta dumb blonde at times, but i got so much smarter in 2009. idk why, i think i wanted it more, the works. i wasn't exactly focused fully, but i really did try. and it got me good grades ^-^ oh yuh. but omg, yaknow what really cheesed me kinda? how people say i'm so smart. i just wanna go to them and be like 'shut up, i'm not smart, i just try hard' LOL. but then again, i don't always try that hard at timesLMFAO, so it would sorta be like 'shut up, i just try to get good grades' yeeee (H) hahaha. 'cause like, dude. to be successful you don't need to be smart. you just gotta try. and 2009 i tried vurry hard. gotta keep that up.

the shy: errr, shyness. shy shy shy guy(always thought that guy in mario games was creepy, haha). i am so shy, still. no lies. but i can't say i didn't open up in /09. 'cause well, i know for sure, i opened my feelings more to people. loike, soooo much. first of all, school. even though, of course you make new friends at school, i opened up more from making them. which is a plus. i know a lot of more people now at carmel, because i tried talking to 'em. and even though i havent talked to people at school, that i want to know, that situation always happens, haha. next. fiesta. i have gotten so comfortable at practice. and with them, in general. my friend said that when i was growing there, i just kept getting louder and louder every yearLOL. i'm actually liked a lot by some of them, and i made great friends there, and they still are great friends. like, learning the higher dances for the boys, and talking to the other guys, and doing the mini performances at places, and the living arts show(;hearts), and the emil yarris 'cats' fail performancesLOL, they made me open up a looooot. AND CAMPING. fiesta camping /09 :'). it wasn't as 'live' i guess, for some people. it was for me. bonded a lot there. and met new people, :'), and had tons of fun. meeting people that opens you up more is fun. not being that shy is fun. haha. fam, yes. they made me open up. proper movement, and legit school friends? mosdef openers. best friends too? openers. everyoneeeeeee. people help me open me up. and me opening myself up? thats a check, for sure. i've realized, so many things about me. that i use it to my advantage, in socializing, and having fun.
.. fun is just the greatest thing, isn't itLOL.

clothes: engh, it was a great 'in' thing for my thoughts. whenever i had money, i guess clothing was a big thing that i wanted to waste it on. not much to say about it, since my clothing sense hasn't changed as much. i've just got more wardrobe throughout the year. i look sorta prettier :) hahaha. and the colours are really sproutingLOL. this category is useless.

overall: it should be changed to happiness, since 2009 was so happy to me. but no. it was so much more things. being smart, it made me feel i could move in life. getting more friends, i felt more confident in my self-esteem. learning so many things, i gained more experience. 2009, overall, was fun. was trying. was the best so far.

the best so far? why?
i got my girlfriend in 2009, thats why, silly! ashlee tadeo, that's her name.
she came into my life in 2009. she was already in it, known her since grade 3. butlike, now she's into it. LMFAO, get it! ahhhhh!

it's not the fact that i got my girlfriend in 2009 which makes it the best. it's how, she made it to be the best. for me, that is. all those things that 2009 has given me, she's given them too. she help me learn, and gave me drive to be smarter. she opened me up, SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH, that i'm not as shy. infact, she's one of the reasons why i did open up to people. she's fullout the reason. she's given me tons of clothes, and things to put on. she gave me shirts, and bracelets, and boxes, and letters, and notes, and trinkets, and snacks, and smiles. in 2009, my girlfriend became the overall reason for fun(LMFAO, what if i said reason for the season, tool). i wish i could go into more detail on how she's impacted me that year. just know that she did. she did she did she did. she did it. she made everything for me. she gave all sorta of things for me. she's the one who made the fuzzies in my tummy, and the redness in my face when im embarrassed. and .. idk, everything. so much, that i blank out kinda when people ask me how important she is. or why i love her. idk if i havent put a category in it, but 2009 was very loving. but it's here where love is, because i got it the most from her. yeah, my friends and fam have loved me, but my girlfriend loved me. in 2009, i got a girlfriend, and she loved me.

my girlfriend loves me.

year 2010

omg wtf. wtf, omg. 2010. 1020LOL. this is great ^-^

s'anyways, 2010. uhm, a lot of people are like, on their website exploits, recapping on 2009. making notes on facebook, tumblr-ing(?) pictures and stuff, blogging it all, tweeting, and i dont even know about myspace, haha. but everyone's doing it, it'd be nice if i did too, just for it all. this is late either way, stillaz, but at least i'm doing one. there's a twist though! really lame, just bear with me. .. it's three, for oneLMFAO. yeah man. take that in. i'm a loser.

err, it's a completely fresh start. now it's older, and so am i. it's now my time to refresh what i did/didn't do, and start again. 'cause no matter how much you do in that past year, you have another one comin'. as much as i always say i wanna grow up, whenever i notice it happening, i wanna get youngerLOL. i'm just so anxious about what responsibilities and things that'll face me, it makes me wanna be a kid again and carelessly live. i am so sure that i'll have to be more stressed, and what i do will change what i do for the rest of my days being. you can call it pre-jitters? def nervous first impressions. i'm hoping i don't go insane.

for 2009, i miss you. sososososososo much, because you were so many things. try to take care of me, present year. now i have to change my dates on my homework pages, hahaha.

Wilfred Manalili

01/01/2010