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wilfred avelino j manalili,
but willy's fine enough.
october 12, ever since '94.
the youngest of 3.
you could say i'm one of those random people in the room to fill up the space. but, i don't exactly take that much, haha. im short, but i'm growing! i'm a growing child. and really, you should notice me. you'd get quite amazed, how different i've become over the years. for the better, for the better. anyways, i'm asian. and have great white/yellow/nude skin. and it never obeys me when i try to tan. i'm a dork, i'm peppy, i'm engh. yet, i'm there. and i try to understand. i like gummies, and ice cream, and funnel cake. i like to stay home for my fam, for loafting, for anything. i write, and i draw, and i notice. i tend to get phased out/bored? but hey, i can still party it up. do not underestimate. in education, i'm up there. haha, but not literally. OLMC's treating me good enough. sophomore year, what? i'm so not ready for it. lately, i've been into traveling and going away. experiencing* i'm really trying to boost my shyness up. 'cause, yes, i am originally shy to be around. but, its getting better. i think.
music, computer, food (but no gain), growing up, the "usual"/"yuje".
cannot forget a.t♥ she gets me.
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July 23, 2011
just seeing you is all, :)
away,
you're gone now.
and you will be, for a long time.
and well idk how we'll manage without you casually being here - just waiting for us to suddenly message you for conversation - or vice versa.
because right now, i really wish you hadn't gone.
right now i need your advice, and your opinion, and all the comfortable happiness in between.
but when you come back, in approximately a month or such, it'll all be figured out already. things will already happen, advice already given.
you think leaving is good for us all, and i support that, honest.
the thing is, when one of us is gone, it's so much harder for the rest of us to keep together. so much harder to hang out and think, 'the family's all here'
i'll be fine really, and you know it.
just, i'll be missing you, that's all.
please have fun♥
and you will be, for a long time.
and well idk how we'll manage without you casually being here - just waiting for us to suddenly message you for conversation - or vice versa.
because right now, i really wish you hadn't gone.
right now i need your advice, and your opinion, and all the comfortable happiness in between.
but when you come back, in approximately a month or such, it'll all be figured out already. things will already happen, advice already given.
you think leaving is good for us all, and i support that, honest.
the thing is, when one of us is gone, it's so much harder for the rest of us to keep together. so much harder to hang out and think, 'the family's all here'
i'll be fine really, and you know it.
just, i'll be missing you, that's all.
please have fun♥
familiar,
July 22, 2011
it's been a while, really
and well, a lot's changed.
everything is moving, people are growing,
and i'm constantly going with what i have.
what's currently on my mind is:
* who i want to be with. who i want to care for, and pay attention to. recently i've been blessed with a group of friends that have made me feel like a part of something. they've spent the past few months with me, and i've come to a realization of how important they truly are. when we're together, i feel as if everything was worth being in that moment; the happiness, the quality. i see each of them with love - i confide in them. because they've really become the people i can tell anything i want to to. they listen to who i am, how i feel, my thoughts - regardless. i could talk endlessly of how, well, grateful i am to have them with me. i really hope that they're most of my summer.
* where i stand. as a friend, for others. because it's not just my recent lovers that i'm friends with. i've completely unnoticed and aimlessly passed by all of my other friends, my groups, my advices. specifically my dance friends. because of my summer school, i haven't really had that free time to join in on my dance friends' get togethers and group events: annual camping being one of them. i'm going to be further missing out on being with them in dance performances and well, hanging out in general - the reason being completely singular of me. i feel completely out of the group really, because whenever i see them they seem to have grown without me. they have their own personal jokes, their own inside conversations, and i'm just there secluded. well either way, i'm too busy thinking about my school work, or my own personal friendships, and not them - which is why i feel so bad. i want to feel like i've missed out, but they'll catch me back up and let me blend in with them. but it's not that easy when i want to add my togethers aswell but they don't accept it. if only i could have, everything i like weave together into this big, whole like for me. if only.
* you. and me - us. and if we're just a phase for me or not. if i should keep enjoying or stop opening up. because i like us here, i'm satisfied already. i'm not completely comfortable, but i want to stay so you help me be. on the other hand, i don't want to ignore other people. i don't want to get carried away and upset another friend of mine, get them jealous, get them envious, get their hopes up just for upset. i don't want to well, keep getting carried away. because you actually mean so much right now. you make me want to love you so much fuller, but remind me how hard i should stop. all you want from us is happy, but i need to negotiate with myself how i can keep that up for us - because i really don't want to leave. i love you no matter what and i don't want some stupid decision of mine to make you disappear.
... as you can see i'm tied, quite closely.
and well i just wanted to tell you about it.
oh how much you've missed, :'o
until the next free thought, ♥
everything is moving, people are growing,
and i'm constantly going with what i have.
what's currently on my mind is:
* who i want to be with. who i want to care for, and pay attention to. recently i've been blessed with a group of friends that have made me feel like a part of something. they've spent the past few months with me, and i've come to a realization of how important they truly are. when we're together, i feel as if everything was worth being in that moment; the happiness, the quality. i see each of them with love - i confide in them. because they've really become the people i can tell anything i want to to. they listen to who i am, how i feel, my thoughts - regardless. i could talk endlessly of how, well, grateful i am to have them with me. i really hope that they're most of my summer.
* where i stand. as a friend, for others. because it's not just my recent lovers that i'm friends with. i've completely unnoticed and aimlessly passed by all of my other friends, my groups, my advices. specifically my dance friends. because of my summer school, i haven't really had that free time to join in on my dance friends' get togethers and group events: annual camping being one of them. i'm going to be further missing out on being with them in dance performances and well, hanging out in general - the reason being completely singular of me. i feel completely out of the group really, because whenever i see them they seem to have grown without me. they have their own personal jokes, their own inside conversations, and i'm just there secluded. well either way, i'm too busy thinking about my school work, or my own personal friendships, and not them - which is why i feel so bad. i want to feel like i've missed out, but they'll catch me back up and let me blend in with them. but it's not that easy when i want to add my togethers aswell but they don't accept it. if only i could have, everything i like weave together into this big, whole like for me. if only.
* you. and me - us. and if we're just a phase for me or not. if i should keep enjoying or stop opening up. because i like us here, i'm satisfied already. i'm not completely comfortable, but i want to stay so you help me be. on the other hand, i don't want to ignore other people. i don't want to get carried away and upset another friend of mine, get them jealous, get them envious, get their hopes up just for upset. i don't want to well, keep getting carried away. because you actually mean so much right now. you make me want to love you so much fuller, but remind me how hard i should stop. all you want from us is happy, but i need to negotiate with myself how i can keep that up for us - because i really don't want to leave. i love you no matter what and i don't want some stupid decision of mine to make you disappear.
... as you can see i'm tied, quite closely.
and well i just wanted to tell you about it.
oh how much you've missed, :'o
until the next free thought, ♥
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