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wilfred avelino j manalili,
but willy's fine enough.
october 12, ever since '94.
the youngest of 3.
you could say i'm one of those random people in the room to fill up the space. but, i don't exactly take that much, haha. im short, but i'm growing! i'm a growing child. and really, you should notice me. you'd get quite amazed, how different i've become over the years. for the better, for the better. anyways, i'm asian. and have great white/yellow/nude skin. and it never obeys me when i try to tan. i'm a dork, i'm peppy, i'm engh. yet, i'm there. and i try to understand. i like gummies, and ice cream, and funnel cake. i like to stay home for my fam, for loafting, for anything. i write, and i draw, and i notice. i tend to get phased out/bored? but hey, i can still party it up. do not underestimate. in education, i'm up there. haha, but not literally. OLMC's treating me good enough. sophomore year, what? i'm so not ready for it. lately, i've been into traveling and going away. experiencing* i'm really trying to boost my shyness up. 'cause, yes, i am originally shy to be around. but, its getting better. i think.
music, computer, food (but no gain), growing up, the "usual"/"yuje".
cannot forget a.t♥ she gets me.
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free fallin'
October 30, 2011
you talk about love
as if you know it
inside out
as if you know it
inside out
but you only speak in one dimension.
it really is true what they say about you:
when you fall, you fall fast
and you fall hard.
it really is true what they say about you:
when you fall, you fall fast
and you fall hard.
what does falling even mean?
because if it really is what you've described it to be,
i'd be supporting you already
(instead of having a different understanding).
instead of not really knowing still.
because if it really is what you've described it to be,
i'd be supporting you already
(instead of having a different understanding).
instead of not really knowing still.
you generalize the definition of "love",
specifically towards one person.
but that is naive,
and very selfish.
you are so devoted in giving,
yet you do not share
to those who need as well
to one, and to no one,
that's what it seems like.
to me, love is in all things.
you see,
the thing about love,
is that it never leaves
(even when you think it has,
or when you want it to).
to me, falling means
you've tried leaving,
but somehow cannot.
you've tried leaving,
but somehow you come back.
you see,
the thing about love,
is that it never leaves
(even when you think it has,
or when you want it to).
to me, falling means
you've tried leaving,
but somehow cannot.
you've tried leaving,
but somehow you come back.
if only we could talk about
who we have fallen for.
then, we, together,
can talk inside out.
who we have fallen for.
then, we, together,
can talk inside out.
subtlety,
October 25, 2011
i've never been a fan of blunt expression.
usually i beat around the bush.
usually i beat around the bush.
slowly you are getting an idea,
but surely i don't see us coming to terms anytime soon.
i say this, because i tried coming to terms.
and it didn't work.
i can't come to terms.
if only you knew how different i see things.
not just for me, or for you
but for us.
but surely i don't see us coming to terms anytime soon.
i say this, because i tried coming to terms.
and it didn't work.
i can't come to terms.
if only you knew how different i see things.
not just for me, or for you
but for us.
List: to stop stressing
October 18, 2011
spend 30 minutes alone (thinking)
take deep breathes
organize your thoughts
drink chocolate milk
have a deep conversation
listen to slow, happy, music
talk to a sibling
make lists
develop a regular routine
wear comfy clothes
throw socks at the wall - let it out!
eat a full meal (nom nom nom)
read a book
stop procrastinating
believe in yourself
laugh with a good friend
take a long, hot, shower
think about a loved one for a few minutes (I do this a lot) <3
know your priorities
always remember deadlines - write them down!
sing to yourself
take a nap - sleep in
cry, if you need to
finish what you have already started, and
always finish once you start
take deep breathes
organize your thoughts
drink chocolate milk
have a deep conversation
listen to slow, happy, music
talk to a sibling
make lists
develop a regular routine
wear comfy clothes
throw socks at the wall - let it out!
eat a full meal (nom nom nom)
read a book
stop procrastinating
believe in yourself
laugh with a good friend
take a long, hot, shower
think about a loved one for a few minutes (I do this a lot) <3
know your priorities
always remember deadlines - write them down!
sing to yourself
take a nap - sleep in
cry, if you need to
finish what you have already started, and
always finish once you start
remember: you are always blessed
Messages from the Universe,
October 13, 2011
I forgive totally and freely. I let go of any resentment or guilt. I am free and I let everyone around me be free. Peace now reigns within me and around me. I trust the great wisdom of the Universe and the present situation of my life is divinely healed for everyone's good.
*special mention to abigail,
i wouldn't be here without your help
In the Gutter, no stars
October 9, 2011
Leaving seems so right, nowadays.
Nowadays, it hurts to stay.
I remind myself every time,
"You cannot always get what you want."
"As good as everything seems, something has to be bad."
...but they don't exactly seem to appreciate my initiative.
I can get so problematic, I just don't want to keep complicating things even further from what they are.
I really do want everybody to reach their aspirations, and be the change they so clearly want. But to be honest, it feels as if I'm getting in the way of that.
My thoughts and wants are so different from everyone else. I believe they will change everything, and turn others against each other - so you could see how bothered I am when people wonder how I feel (ideally setting themselves up for the cold, surprising, different, bad truth).
&what bothers me most is how I'm having a hard time reconsidering.
This time of the year, I would get so inspired - with the weather changing, all the events and birthdays.
I used to shine.
Nowadays, I'm just a shade.
Nowadays, it hurts to stay.
I remind myself every time,
"You cannot always get what you want."
"As good as everything seems, something has to be bad."
...but they don't exactly seem to appreciate my initiative.
I can get so problematic, I just don't want to keep complicating things even further from what they are.
I really do want everybody to reach their aspirations, and be the change they so clearly want. But to be honest, it feels as if I'm getting in the way of that.
My thoughts and wants are so different from everyone else. I believe they will change everything, and turn others against each other - so you could see how bothered I am when people wonder how I feel (ideally setting themselves up for the cold, surprising, different, bad truth).
&what bothers me most is how I'm having a hard time reconsidering.
This time of the year, I would get so inspired - with the weather changing, all the events and birthdays.
I used to shine.
Nowadays, I'm just a shade.
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